In the beginning...

What better way to begin this blog than with a post about my own neurotic behavior (of which I will be eternally grateful).

This has been a wonderful year filled with amazing growth. All of 2004-2007 was about filling my head with as much information on conspiracy theories, government corruption, and new world order as anyone could possibly shove into such a small space.

For Christmas 2007 my sister gave me a History Channel documentary DVD, “Decoding the Past: Doomsday 2012, The End of Days”. Seems to have fit right in with all the rest of my studies, continuing my spiral of fear; and yet it had quite the opposite effect. I found myself riding the Golden Spiral in the opposite direction, toward peace and enlightenment. I am not saying, or implying that I am enlightened, more that I am on the path (I don’t know where on the path, I just feel that I am on it).

In January, I decided it was time to weed out addictions. I started with alcohol, moved on to TV, was temporarily successful with coffee (I think that one needs more time), wheat, red meat, and slothfulness. It is not that I never watch TV or enjoy a burger, it is just that I do so MUCH less often. I really like the idea of moderation and I am really pleased with my successes so far.

During this process I have been reading multiple books on spirituality. I have been doing that for years, but now it is so much more intense. The concepts are alive for me now. I can read a short paragraph and get more out of those few words than I have gotten out of entire books in the past. I think the most powerful book was “A New Earth” by Eckhart Tolle.

Yeah, I jumped on the Oprah bandwagon, and I don’t regret it. I had started recording her shows in January and watching the ones that were of interest, usually about one each week. She started talking about the book and the webcast she was going to be making available. I figured it couldn’t hurt (actually at the time I thought of myself as pretty spiritually advanced, I assumed that the book would have something I could learn from it, although I doubted it would be much... LOL), so I ordered the book and read it. I loved it!

One thing I have definitely learned about myself is that before reading the book, the image I had of myself was so warped that now all I can do is laugh outloud at how obnoxious I must have seemed to everyone around me. I offer my deepest apologies to anyone and everyone that I ever interacted with. What a boorish, self-righteous, abhorrent SOB I was… might still be, but now I am aware of it which makes it much easier to remove. The webcast is still ongoing, two more classes. I really enjoy listening to and watching Mr. Tolle, he seems so at peace and excited about Life.

In any case, all of this personal change is the inspiration for this blog. Several times a week new concepts become very clear to me and then I call up my sister to tell her all about it. She says she enjoys hearing about it all, and I trust she is being honest with me, it just seems like there may be a different way to share my thoughts. I enjoy writing, but do not do it often. So instead of calling my sister with these new “epiphanies” I decided to write them down and put them in a blog.

I look forward to the day when I can read pages and pages of past writings and see very clearly the direction of my path.